Reahani

location: My Office

mood: content

music: GARY NUMAN- Noise Noise

Once upon a time I befriended this one guy. I felt really bad for him because his so-called best friend completely bashed him and since I was dealing with drama from that same person and his cronies, I befriended him, because I felt he needed a friend who understood wtf it was like. We were friends for 2 and a half years. Some days were great, having long intellectual convos and joking about shit that left us laughing for long periods at a time. Other times it was very strained, as he would yabber on and on about his old friendship with his now ex-bestfriend. It really got old and pathetic.

I was there for him when his so-called best friend & trashy gf kicked him out in LV and I was there for him the entire time he was homeless until he got back to San Diego. I even send the guy $700.00 to help his ass get back on his feet, because his mom was in a cinch. Once more, he continued to yabber on and on, hoping his ex-bestfriend would dump the trashy gf and move back to San Diego. Thing is, I couldn't explain to him, mainly because he didn't want to hear it, was that I didn't think the guy would ever leave LV, nor his trashy gf, as long as she was supporting him and paying for his baby-food and diapers (metaphorically speaking); I couldn't explain to him that what he and his ex-bestfriend had as friends (years ago now) was probably gone... things change, ppl change, and you cannot live in the past forever. You have to move on with your life (and grow-up) at some point.

I was asked to stalk and keep an eye on things. I'd tell him things and he'd get really upset and then told me not to tell him anything. I mean, wtf? Why bother watching for his ass?-- go watch your damn self! It got old when it really didn't have any value for me anymore, since I have more or less moved-on from that douche and his now ruined reputation; it's not like it was in the old days 4-5 years ago when things were cool. I am different now and have integrated that aspect he represented for me, into me and have accepted it. And maybe the universe is finishing up the mirror theory in that, since this friend of mine is still so personally tied (~cough~ obsessed) to that man, his existance in my life no longer serves a purpose either.

So as of late, we've argued and argued. He tried to break my spirit by belittling my emotions and knowledge of things all the while knowing I was right (and he could not accept the fact I stood up to him like I did) and that's when I drew the line and told him it was over. I was sick of his bitching and verbal abuse. I realize the man is highly emotionally disturbed and as I am growing and moving on toward a better life, I have no use, need for it, nor deserve it. I was a good friend when it was necessary, but that fucker is on his own now.

There was a period when we did not speak for awhile and then he called me one day out of the blue; he said he missed me. There will be no more calling my ass back for anything anymore. I made it clear to him. It's best we part ways and he move on, because I am done with the diaper-fodder in Vegas, and all reflections of him thus.

Seee-ya! >;-)
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Quote of the Day: "You feel like you're God, but y'know all young Gods must fade." (-- Gary Numan: "Noise Noise")
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